Touching My Heart

I usually don't post twice in one day but I have too. I need everyone to read the following story and PLEASE sign the petition:


In a small highly segregated rural Louisiana town of Jena in September 2006, a black student asked permission from school administrators to sit under the shade of a tree commonly reserved for the enjoyment of white students. School officials advised the black students to sit wherever they wanted and they did. The next day, three nooses, in the school colors, were hanging from the same tree. The Jena high school principal found that three white students were responsible and recommended expulsion. The white superintendent of schools over-ruled the principal and gave the students a three day suspension, saying that the nooses were a youthful stunt. Black students decided to resist and organized a sit-in under the tree to protest the lenient treatment given to the noose-hanging white students.Racial tensions remained elevated throughout the fall.

On Monday, December 4 2006, a white student who allegedly had been racially taunting black students in support of the students who hung the nooses got into a fight with black students. Allegedly, the white student was taken to the hospital treated, released, reportedly attended a social function later that evening. As a result of this incident, six black Jena students were arrested and charged with attempted second degree murder. All six were expelled from school.

The six charged were: 17-year-old Robert Bailey Junior whose bail was set at $138,000; 17-year-old Theo Shaw - bail $130,000; 18-year-old Carwin Jones--bail $100,000; 17-year-old Bryant Purvis--bail $70,000; 16 year old Mychal Bell, a sophomore in high school who was charged as an adult and for whom bail was set at $90,000; and a still unidentified minor. On the morning of the trial, the District Attorney reduced the charges from attempted second degree murder to second degree aggravated battery and conspiracy. Aggravated battery in Louisiana law demands the attack be with a dangerous weapon. The prosecutor was allowed to argue to the jury that the tennis shoes worn by Bell could be considered a dangerous weapon. When the pool of potential jurors was summoned, fifty people appeared, all white.

The jury deliberated for less than three hours and found Mychal Bell guilty on the maximum possible charges of aggravated second degree battery and conspiracy. He faces up to a maximum of 22 years in prison. The rest of the Jena 6 await similar trials. Theodore Shaw is due to go on trial shortly. Mychal Bell is scheduled to be sentenced July 31. If he gets the maximum sentence he will not be out of prison until he is nearly 40. THE MESSAGE:· As Chairman Julian Bond stated, "This is an American outrage that demonstrates the continuing shame of racial division in our country. Join us in making it one of the last."

· In light of the circumstances surrounding Mychal Bell's case, we urge all concerned citizens to support the call for a new trial.

· It is unacceptable to selectively enforce the law based on race. Prosecutorial discretion should be used in a fair and equitable manner.

· The Jena Six should be tried by juries that reflect the racial and ethnic demographics of Jena, Louisiana.

· The hanging of nooses is not a "youthful stunt" or "prank." It is a hate crime. Such hate crimes should not be tolerated at any school. Jena High School must establish a curriculum which promotes cultural sensitivity and understanding.

· The NAACP calls on Louisiana Governor Kathleen B. Blanco and Louisiana Attorney General Charles C. Foti to thoroughly investigate and monitor the trials of Mychal Bell, Robert Bailey, Jr., Theo Shaw, Carwin Jones, Bryant Purvis and John Doe. The Governor and State Attorney General should do everything in their power to ensure that these young men's constitutional rights are protected.

THANK YOU FOR YOUR ATTENTION TO THIS IMPORTANT MATTER!!!
If you have any questions, call Angela Ciccolo at the National Headquarters at (410) 580-5777

This is wrong very very wrong as a united people of every race please let us stand up and fight against this injustice.

Praying for peace,


Carmel Beauty

Pass the Word YA Heard!!!!!

STRESSED THE FUCK OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That describes how I feel to a T!! Yesterday at work (by the way my home life is going okay right now for the most part) Dory came to me and asked me if I was going to be busy today. Apparently her supervisor and mine until I get this new job if I get it told her to ask me with help on a project she is working on. Now dory claims she does not have time to do her work, but takes off every Wednesday and talks to several people throughout the day A LOT. Me being the person I am even though I have plently of my own work to do decide to help her but only for yesterday and because I am trying to make a good impersion so I can get this new job. She told me the WRONG thing to do so I give up. All day yesterday everybody said I had a grit face and asked me what was wrong. My supervisor that asked me to do this in the first place as me if I need some caffine or somebody to lay hands on me. I work yall all day from the time I get here till the time I leave and I am still behind, because I am doing the job THREE people were doing by MYSELF. Don't nobody help me with my duties. I am sick and tired of this bullshit. If I don't get this stupid fucking job I am going to go the FUCK off on everybody!!!!!!

Okay I am done for now with my rant. In other news I thought everybody had forgotten about my short story. I will write another entry this weekend I promise MUM.

Question of the day: Does anybody know how to assemble an assualt rifle or make a bomb? I'm just curious it could be useful information one day :-)

Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

BORED!!!

I am so bored right now it is pathetic it's not like I don't have anything to do I have tons of work I just don't want to do it. Help!!! I have nothing to write today I can't get interested in anything. I am not going to bore yall two so I will post more either later today or tomorrow.

Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

Dummies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I work with a bunch of DUMMIES!!! Not everybody, but one in particular then when you name her you think of about 4 more. It is truly ridiculous. I mean Dory I have told you about her in a previous post where I don't remember, but anywho. She reminds me of bugs bunny because when you tell her how to do something (mind you this lady makes way more then I do and has been here way longer then I have) she says something to the effect of "W-W-What do y-y-you mean?" People will not tell her stuff just so they don't have to spend HOURS explaining the same thing over and over for her to still NOT understand anyway. I mean she is a nice lady but that does not get the work done I need done right. Now you all know the saying you can't teach and old dog new tricks well shit you can't teach her old tricks. I am trying to make this office more efficient for everybody benefit and my sanity. It is not working. If you don't hear from me in a couple days that either means I'm in the loony bin telling my therapist that she made me do I just couldn't tell her how to open the L drive not one more time I mean Doc you got to understand I said it about 20 times please don't send me away forever I will never strangle another person I promise as long as they don't ask me the same question more then twice, or I will be in jail trying to act all hard while the other inmates are asking me what I am in for I have to say well I flipped the fuck out on this lady then they say why what she do to you hurt your baby girl, your momma, what take your money why you flip out on home girl oh she asked me the same question 10 times and I just couldn't take it anymore. On second thought that would probably be a good thing cause all the inmates would think I was crazy and LEAVE ME ALONE. All well I know I ain't about to do that I would miss STBH and my ANGEL too much, but the thought helps me through the hard times.


Question of the Day: Do you know some things I could do to annoy her on the sneak tip? I would love to watch her go crazy for a couple of hours. HEHE!! HAHA!!

Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

News Read All About It!!

Let's see what is going on in my life:

• I got some good news. Remember the job I was telling everybody about well my "temporary" supervisor that would be my supervisor if I got the job told me yesterday that I am still a good candidate for the job and that interviews will begin within the next 2 weeks.
• My little Angel seems to be doing better. Today she was not fussy when I dropped her off at daycare. I believe her ear infection is doing better.
• My apartment complex has stated they will repair the door but only are required by lease to do exterminations 3 times a year so I will be on a cleaning frenzy this weekend. I got information from a great website from Weekends though so again Thank you very much.
• I had fun being tagged so I will play again sometime in the future.
• My car is having problems AGAIN!! I am about ready to give it up and just get another except I really don't have money for that or to fix it so I am stuck between a rock and a hard place.
• STBH and I are still doing well he is out of town for a couple of days and I miss him something terrible. I hate when he leaves me. :-(
• I have officially run out of things to say for now, but if I think of more I will post later.

Question of the day: I have changed my blog background do you like?

Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

I have been tagged!!!!!!

*What side of the heart do you draw first? Right
*Can you dive without plugging your nose? I can, but don't it burns.
*What color is your phone? Home phone is white Cell is Red
*Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours? STBH
*Where are you right now?At work in my office pretending to work
*How do you feel about carrots? Raw good Cooked Bad
*How many chairs at the dining room table? N/A
*Who is the best Spice Girl? I don't really know who they are expect Scary Spice.
*Do you know what time it is? Please say it is 4:20
*What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator? Scream faint wake up and scream some more if you can't tell I am terrified of enclosed places
*What's your favorite kind of gum?winter fresh
*T or F: All is fair in love and war? False
*Do you use words that you don't know the meaning to? No
*Do you like to sleep? Yes too much I miss it
*Do you know which US states don't use Daylight Savings? Nope and Don't care
*Do you know the song Sugar We're Goin' Down? Nope
*Do you want a bright yellow '06 mustang? Nope Purple yes Yellow no
*What's something you've always wanted? Married with children
*Do you wear a lot of black? yes I wear a lot of dark colors
*Describe your hair. Dark brown shoulder length.
*Are you an adult? By some peoples standards
*Who is/are your best friends? STBH , Alexis
*Do you have a tan? No
*Are you a television addict? I love Charmed, Buffy the Vampire Slayer , and Sex in the City since these don't come on anymore I don't watch TV as much.
*Do you enjoy spending time with your mom? NO We don't get along very well.
*Are you a sugar freak? Nope just a Freak.
*What is your favorite movie? Love Jones
*What's your sign? Taurus
*Where do you wish you were right now? With STBH and my Angel
*Who did you copy this from? Weekends
*How do you know them? My blogger friend
*Would you have sex with them? UH No
*What brand of shirt are you wearing? cheap
*Have you ever smoked anything? Did I mention I wish it was 4:20


Have a Great Evening Everyone!! I lost all my links so if you are missing, know which ones are missing, or can help me find the link to Tanner please let me know.

Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

A little random information, A Lot of uninteresting facts

** Warning this is written by a mother who has only had 3 hours of continuous sleep and needs a nap***

Last week I took TWO Days off from work. Day one I was sick as a dog. I didn't want to take this day off, but I just couldn't make it in. Day Two which was Wednesday I had to go to court. You remember the traffic accident I had well I got a ticket. So I go to court at 7:40am after dropping my Angel off at daycare. My thinking was that since court doesn't start till 9am I will be early and get to leave early. I was WRONG in my thought process, because when I got there it was a line all the way to china. So I am standing behind this chick and she just starts talking to me telling me TMI. This is what I learned.

1. She served 30 days in jail for 10 worthless checks.
2. She was in court last time for a hit and run she is currently on probation for.
3. Her boyfriend came downstairs from the 5th floor and told her where he had court at today. ( My only thought to this was please don't have any children)
4. She talks a lot.

Then the man behind me advised me this was his second traffic ticket and told me how the system works. Also that there would be a record number of 1900 people in court today. So I waited and waited and WAITED to be told that I have to get information from my insurance company and come back on September 5th. I am not doing my happy dance.

My apartment complex is giving me trouble that is starting to make me trip the FUCK out. Last month my door was replaced with a new "better" one. When this happen a couple days later we had to stay with my grandma, because we didn't have any transportation. Last week we finally got a working car. We move back home and I begin to notice immediate problems in the form of ants everywhere. I did not leave food out so I am not able to understand what the problem is. Then while cleaning the hallway by the door (sweeping, mopping) I notice where the ants are coming from. They come in the front door like they fucking pay rent. I also can not lock the door without almost breaking the key and the last straw was last night. I was laying in bed with my feverish daughter and a bug flew from my bathroom into my bed room. I don't even know what kind of bug this was it didn't look like it should have wings, because it then began to crawl before I killed it. I HATE any and all bugs. I called the apartment complex last week Thursday and Friday. I called again today and they said the problem has been repaired but that is a lie because I still see ants coming in daily I can't stay there with this issue the manager is suppose to be calling me back soon.

My daughter has her 5th ear infection since the end of May and I am just NOT happy about that. I need her to have some relieve and her doctor to do a better job or I will have to get her another one, because this is just too much.

And to top off this really long post I am going to give you the icing on the cake. STBH wants to have another child. He came out point blank and said he is ready for another one.

Question of the day: If I shoot, stab, beat, & burn STBH do you think I they will think I was trying to kill him? If so with all the stress I currently have do you think I can plead temporary insanity? I.E. The ants made me do it.

Looking for shelter,

Carmel Beauty

**Update***

My angel has yet another ear infection. I just may tie my tubes. Thanks Weekends I will try that stuff I have also called my apartment complex THREE times and sent and email since I wrote this post and the Manager is suppose to be coming to my house this afternoon.

Hey Everybody!!

So I just looked at my visitors side bar and I am on my way to being a well read blog. I hadn't really been paying attention, but I over 1220. So I am doing my happy dance. I know I was kinda MIA last week. I had such good intentions this weekend to write since I didn't last weekend well guess what everybody. I good intentions went to hell in a hand basket. Right now I am so congested I can barely breath without either sneezing or blowing my nose. It is annoying. Allergies it has been HIGH 90's to even a record breaking 105 here in my wonderful state so I have been burning hot as well as annoyed.

Anywho, last week that bad thing I thought was going to happen well it fooled me, because that issue me and stbh have been having has actually gotten some good news. It's not over but I can see clearer now that the rain is less than before.

In other news, my stbh has been maturing on me I am starting to feel like the child less like the adult.(Yeah!!) I think this is great. We have always clicked in a way that was eerie to me, but now he knows what I am thinking and feeling and express thought and feelings along the same lines. With our wedding to be approaching soon this really helps me to realize what a good decision we are making. I know everything won't be peaches and cream, but I'm lovin it.

Remember a few post ago I asked about children he just wants to have them till we can't have any more. He is stuck on the number ten well I want to give yall and update on the situation. I still bring it up every once in a while to try to gauge how far I have brought him back to reality. Well we talked on Sunday and his current scenario involved us living on a farm growing all of our food, me making clothes, and our children doing chores. I told him I am strictly a city girl and this would NOT WORK, but I am not sure if he was serious or not I am praying NOT. If he is that puts us back about 20 paces in my thinking that we are on the same page.

Question of the day: STBH wants to try out something new and I wanted to know if any of yall have tried it. He wants to get some of the cheese from the boxed Mac n' cheese boxes heat it a little and place some on my snatch and lick it off. If you have tried this let me know. If you have tried other things please let me know what you liked and didn't just curious.


I'm Lovin it,

Carmel Beauty

I have not dropped off the planet, but I may want to.

Hey Everybody,

I have been sooooooooooo busy this last week plus for the last couple of days I have had writers block and have had no ideas on what to write. Being both sleepy and busy just do not work well together. My daughter's teething is keeping the household up at night, and work is WORK. I am still doing the job that previously 3 people were doing and it is getting to me know. Big Time. Sorry I haven't posted in a while I am fine tuning the ending of Mike and Kyra's story so I should have that completed by Monday and just post it all at one time.

I can't write more now but I will on either tomorrow or Friday.

Question of the day: Does anybody know how to make me disappear like magic for a couple of days then reappear like nothing happened?


AAAAHHHHHHHHH (screaming I feel better now :-) ),

Carmel Beauty

Trouble on the Horizon??

Do you ever get the feeling that something bad is a coming? Like at any minute now your going to get that call that something has just happened. I feel like that now it's a horrible feeling, and I am not sure how to shake it. So taking time to work on Mike and Kyra's story, and a few other things around the house hopefully will help a little. I am such a control freak because I really just want something to do, lists I can make, arrangements, something. I don't like leaving things in the hands of others. I am probably not making sense right now and for that I apologize. Remember a few posts ago I told yall me and stbh were having an issue well I am trying to help both of us to get through it, and right now I feel so helpless. I'm afraid to do the wrong thing, but I am more afraid to do nothing at all. That's why I have not been able to post my normal insightful post as of late.

Well I have to get to work, because if I don't do it it won't get done.


Praying for patience, wisdom, and strength,

Carmel Beauty