MIA!!

I know that probably nobody even reads my blog now since I have been MIA for a very long time, but between work, school, my angel, and STBH I just haven't had a chance to blog. I have been keeping up with other people's blogs though so I have stayed in the no. Well today I have big news for everybody. Drum roll please



STBH and I are getting MARRIED. Yeah!!! I am excited, nervous, and READY. The butterflies are going to kill me seriously. My work Mom just had me list all the reasons why we want to get married and it kind of had me teary eyed because we have been through so much and to finally get to this point. It has been amazing.

In other news their is a position coming open at my job. I want it really bad, but my supervisor is the type to have someone he thinks should have the position and just go with them. That's what he did for me. :-) It was good then, but it may not work out so well for me now. It would be a nice increase though if I could get it. I hope so cause I need it.

School will be over next week. I have a final on Monday then one on Wednesday and then no more until August. I def need the break. Right now I am just so ready to leave work. I am suppose to leave at 3:30pm to go get ready for our 6pm ceremony, but time is going by so slow. I feel like it is going backwards.

Question of the day: So to all the married/divorced people out there how did you feel on your
wedding day?


Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!

I SCREAMED WHILE DOING THE HAPPY DANCE!!!!!

So my bad day turned out to not be as bad as I thought it was. I mean I got the job so my interview couldn't have been that bad right? Anywho, I have been super busy trying to get my office together sign all the new paper work. Life has just been a big mess for me. My daughter also potentially has another ear infection. If she does she will be referred to a Ear specialist. The thought of her going through surgery is scary, but the thought of her being deaf is worse. So all my praying people just pray for our family. Also the situation I mentioned in a previous post about me and STBH having an issue should be coming to a head at the end of this month beginning of the next. So please just pray for our family we are going to need it in the next coming month.

My new job seems like it will be something that I will like. I love working here I just need someone to come in and help me during the day. I need the help seriously I have so much work to do I don't even have time to type this up. Also due to my increase in salary I have to do the following:

1. Move (Due to my new economic status we make too much money to live here)
2. Find a new Daycare ( Due to my new economic status I would have to pay $209.00 a week for her current day care)
3. Get health insurance for my Angel ( The insurance through my new job is $159.00 to 259.00 a month depending on the coverage I choose)

So after all the changes we have to make I will actually have less money at the end of the month, but I have job security and an opportunity to go back to school. STBH and I will both be going back to school while my granny watches the baby on nights we are both at school. The next couple of years will be hard, but well worth it. The thing that makes it all worth it is in the end I will have a beautiful healthy well rounded daughter, and a loving caring supportive sexy husband by my side. STBH and I talked about it and have decided to address the most pressing issues first then the less and just take everything one day at a time. Hopefully by January or Summer of next year STBH and I will be in school.

Question of the day: I thought because we decided we both want to go back to school that STBH would agree that now is not the time to procreate again we need to wait till we finish school (I only have two more years to get my degree.) Do you know what this fool said, and I quote " you can take online classes." Why can we agree on some many other things, just not this? Do you think he would be mad if he found out I have been taking shhhhhhh... birth control pills don't tell

Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

A little random information, A Lot of uninteresting facts

** Warning this is written by a mother who has only had 3 hours of continuous sleep and needs a nap***

Last week I took TWO Days off from work. Day one I was sick as a dog. I didn't want to take this day off, but I just couldn't make it in. Day Two which was Wednesday I had to go to court. You remember the traffic accident I had well I got a ticket. So I go to court at 7:40am after dropping my Angel off at daycare. My thinking was that since court doesn't start till 9am I will be early and get to leave early. I was WRONG in my thought process, because when I got there it was a line all the way to china. So I am standing behind this chick and she just starts talking to me telling me TMI. This is what I learned.

1. She served 30 days in jail for 10 worthless checks.
2. She was in court last time for a hit and run she is currently on probation for.
3. Her boyfriend came downstairs from the 5th floor and told her where he had court at today. ( My only thought to this was please don't have any children)
4. She talks a lot.

Then the man behind me advised me this was his second traffic ticket and told me how the system works. Also that there would be a record number of 1900 people in court today. So I waited and waited and WAITED to be told that I have to get information from my insurance company and come back on September 5th. I am not doing my happy dance.

My apartment complex is giving me trouble that is starting to make me trip the FUCK out. Last month my door was replaced with a new "better" one. When this happen a couple days later we had to stay with my grandma, because we didn't have any transportation. Last week we finally got a working car. We move back home and I begin to notice immediate problems in the form of ants everywhere. I did not leave food out so I am not able to understand what the problem is. Then while cleaning the hallway by the door (sweeping, mopping) I notice where the ants are coming from. They come in the front door like they fucking pay rent. I also can not lock the door without almost breaking the key and the last straw was last night. I was laying in bed with my feverish daughter and a bug flew from my bathroom into my bed room. I don't even know what kind of bug this was it didn't look like it should have wings, because it then began to crawl before I killed it. I HATE any and all bugs. I called the apartment complex last week Thursday and Friday. I called again today and they said the problem has been repaired but that is a lie because I still see ants coming in daily I can't stay there with this issue the manager is suppose to be calling me back soon.

My daughter has her 5th ear infection since the end of May and I am just NOT happy about that. I need her to have some relieve and her doctor to do a better job or I will have to get her another one, because this is just too much.

And to top off this really long post I am going to give you the icing on the cake. STBH wants to have another child. He came out point blank and said he is ready for another one.

Question of the day: If I shoot, stab, beat, & burn STBH do you think I they will think I was trying to kill him? If so with all the stress I currently have do you think I can plead temporary insanity? I.E. The ants made me do it.

Looking for shelter,

Carmel Beauty

**Update***

My angel has yet another ear infection. I just may tie my tubes. Thanks Weekends I will try that stuff I have also called my apartment complex THREE times and sent and email since I wrote this post and the Manager is suppose to be coming to my house this afternoon.