Wishing you a Merry Christmas!!

All things considered this christmas was very good. They had a vigil at my chruch last week for my grandfather. It was nice I did not want to go at first, but after the fact I was glad that I did. It gave me a sense of peace. My baby was showed some love this christmas not that she needed to much more toys, but hey she was happy so I was happy. Then my mom got me a DVD player which was nice. It made me laugh it stays in the car though I be damned it someone steals anything else from me. :-) Work is boring it's like only four people here until the 2nd of January. I have like nobody to talk to and tons of work I don't want to do. Well it's time to go home and since I do want to do that I will say



Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

Coming Soon to a Computer near you!

Sylvia Hubbards new live story starts in January! To join in on the ride that is sure to be the best to date click HERE to sign up for email notification. You will also be able to get a sneak peak at the new book.

Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

BREAK-IN

Yesterday my home, my place of peace was turned into a place of dread. My humble home was broken into yesterday. There were only two things taken during my break-in one was valued at $30 the other was priceless. To someone who will probably remain forever nameless and faceless my security which is priceless to me was worth a DVD player. Truly what exactly is the world coming to? My home was destroyed, I have glass, and clothes everywhere. My love seat is turned over they even when through the baby's room searching. I mean if they were watching my home they should be able to tell that we are not rich at least not with material possessions. I was just starting to feel safe again after my grandfather was murdered going to get his mail and then this has to happen. How much is one person suppose to be able to take. I am really being tested, what I don't understand is why?

Yesterday I wanted to buy a gun. I was all ready to go on my lunch hour today to apply for my gun license. I understood with all my mind, body, heart, and soul what made T.I. feel like he needed to have guns in his home with silencers and infrared beams. I looked at my daughter and thought I would kill for her I thanked the Lord for making sure my family was safe and tried to make all the thoughts of revenge in my mind go away. The anger I have been feeling will eat away at my soul if I let it. I am trying not to, but I am losing patience.

Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

Violence

My thoughts for the day I don't have much time, but I have been hoping and praying that they catch my grandfather's killer. I want that man to suffer. I thought about the death penalty, but in the end I felt that was too good for him. I think that we need to come up with those punishments that they have for people in other countries where crime is at a much lower rate. On house last night one of the Doctors said that death is easy it's the living that hard. Truly it is when you think about it. I mean yes I believe in God and I know that there is a Hell, but I want my vengeance now. I bet people would think twice if they know that when they were convicted of murder, rape, molestation, the truly violent crimes against people that either the surviving victim or the closet family member would get to choose there punishment. To me it would give me a sense of justice let a jury of there peers decide if they are guilty but I want to give them the sentence.

Question of the Day: What do you feel are suitable punishments for murder, child molestation, rape, & attempted murder ? If it was decided that a person would get the death penalty I believe they should die in the same manner as the person they killed. One more question umm do you think I'm crazy? .......... I will wait while you think if your answer is what I think it is then

SO

Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

Did you miss me?

I first want to say THANK YOU to everyone for all the love and support. It has truly been a hard time for my family. I am still having nightmares and I am so scary I sometimes want to slap myself. Everyday it gets a little easier and I know the pain will never go away, but hey.

Enough about that I am reading this great story by Sylvia Hubbard called Drawing the line promised to tell ten friends and hopefully I can get the three people who read my blog to check it out.

Mike and Kyra will be wrapped up before the end of the year I promise I have another story idea just wanting to present itself.

My comments for the day are about R. Kelly. I want his lawyer truly I do. I also think that any publicity he receive whether it is good or bad is good for him and I think everybody just needs to stop talking about him. If he did what he is being accused of then they need to put his ass under the jail with a big dude name smalls. If you know what I mean. All this talk about him and Ne-Yo people ain't got nothing better to talk about I am Tired of hearing about it. Why don't people talk about the LOOOONNGEESSSTT trail in American History now that is a story.

Question of the day: Do you think R. Kelly would like it if somebody peed on him?


Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

taking a mini vacation

My mind is just not in the right place right now I have so much anger in me that at times I feel I may explode. At other times I feel afraid I need to work on these things before I can return to posting only a week or two break but if you want to know why I feel this way go to the link below.

My grandfather


Praying for Strength,

Carmel Beauty

Life or something like it!

Hey Everybody,

Sorry I have have been MIA I hate it when my fellow bloggers do that, but it could not be helped. My little Angel turned 1 on 10/09 so I have been busy being a first time parent spending more money then is necessary on a party she will NEVER remember. Also I don't know if I have mentioned it before, but when I went into labor with my daughter my sister in law was also pregnant and when she came to visit me. Guess what she went into labor and had her baby HOURS before I had my angel. So guess what I was one PISSED person that day. Anywho me and the sister in law do not get along never have and probably never will. Well needless to say everyone wanted to throw there parties on the same day and my gut told me to say NO well I didn't listen and the party did not make my angel happy. She is always just about ready to cunk out after day care because she doesn't sleep well with others in the room she is just to nosy. Anywho she cried almost the whole time. Now for a little more background information the Mama STBH mama treats her grandchildren differently. For instance she has four grand kids one is me and STBH the other four are the sister in law's. Me and STBH called her the other day and she told us she wanted to spend time with her grand kids so she went to pick up the other three. Mind you she has NEVER come to get my baby and spend time with her. So you know that the party was not my favorite. She bought my precious prissy little girl who did not even want to get cake and icing on her hands a little boy motorcycle. I mean it is red and blue and has peddles this for a little girl who just took her first steps 2 months ago. But the other little girl she bought a little pink and green bike without peddles that can be pushed from behind. That is just one of the ways that tried to play my baby that day so needless to say I was ready to open a can of whup your motherfucking ass before I left.

In other news have you heard about the boy shooting up the school. This is just too much I am such a worrier and I don't know how I will be able to send my daughter to school when the time comes I have a problem sending her to day care now.

Question of the day: We have a new lady in our department who is annoying and just a little off. This chick is so bad they through a party for her when she left her other department. Am I destined to end up working with the dumbest, most annoying, ungrateful, unable to do anything for themselves, lazy, and crazy people in America? If so do you think I could plead bad luck in my defense when I crack the fuck up and go postal on everyone?


Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

Yes it's ALIVE!!!!

This is going to be short and to the point I'm extremely busy today also my life right now is boring. I want to finish the Mike and Kyra story up in the next two weeks then start another also my next major topic will be concerning prisons I think. It's something that has affected a major part of my life throughout the years and I really want to get a feeling for how everybody else view the system. Let's see other than that remember I was telling yall about my situation with getting this job how everything was going to change well I have covered two hurdles. One I have found a new daycare for my angel she starts on Nov. 1 and two I have found affordable health care service for her. So my last hurdle will be to find an apartment/ preferable a house for rent that I can afford. I have till February which is really right around the corner. I miss everybody nobody comments anymore, but I do see that I still have lurkers. Well I gots to go.

Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

BTW if anybody has been watching Desperate Housewives please catch me up on what the HELL is going on with Edie didn't she die last season?

LAUGH!!!!

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SMOOCHIES,

CARMEL BEAUTY

JENA 6

I have already written a post dedicated to the JEAN 6, if you have not read it please do so at this time. Remember this is not a battle against black & white it is against INJUSTICE of all kinds. The fight does not end here. This fight began a long time ago and today shows just one of the many times we have fought against injustice. So everyone black, white, yellow, & etc. remember "IF YOU DON'T STAND FOR SOMETHING YOU WILL FALL FOR ANYTHING."

Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty