PAY DAY! MAYBE?

I get paid once a month it is always seems to take forever for me to get paid. This month we are using a new payroll system different departments were placed on this system at different times and well it has been a disaster at least the first couple of months. I tell you this to say that I will and I mean will go the FUCK off if my money is not in my account in the next 53 minutes. Yes I am up at 11:07pm and will be up till 12am just to make sure my money is deposited as it should. See I am one very broke sister. No matter how much we budget throughout the month with the price of everything and I do mean everything raising it never seems to make it past the third sometimes second week of the month. Just pray for me as I will for you because our economy sucks and is getting worse by the day.

Anywhoo, I hope everyone is going to vote no matter who you are voting for please please VOTE!!!.


QUESTION OF THE DAY: I am only 27 years old and I find myself thinking of the past as the better times. So I am wondering like me do you miss things like the Cosby show, the wonder years, saved by the bell, gas at approx $1.50 a gallon, salt n' pepa, and just a simpler time when you didn't have to decide food or gas?



SMOOCHES,

CARMEL BEAUTY

Test!

So lately I feel like my life is one big test. I was recently married and now I feel like I am being tested on whether or not I can be a good wife. This test is not coming from my husband, but from his family and mine. Then he is being tested of course to make sure he will be a good husband. I wonder is this an ongoings test that you only pass after death or at some point do they trust you.

My other test well this is my last week at school for this semester. So I had a test today and my last one is on Wednesday. School has been kicking my butt. I mean being a mom is a 24/7 all by itself add work, husband, me time and well I am tired. It has been worth it though, because in the end I will be able to get a much better paying job.

In other news my job is still crazy Dory has an assistant now and she is basically doing all of her work. Dory might as well stay home for all the work she does. People are leaving left and right at my job in the last year alone I believe that of a crew of 15 we have lost 5 people. Ah well some are missed, if only because there replacement SUCKS!!!!

Now to the down side to my recent marriage me and him are actually doing better than ever, but my grandmother is Highly upset by our union. We eloped and she was not happy about that. I tired to explain that it was about us and we didn't want to wait any longer. She is barely speaking to me and that kind of hurts my feelings. She has always been controlling and judgemental, but since the death of my grandfather it has gotten worse. I think he mellowed her out a little. Hopefully she calms down a little.

Question of the day: How do you deal with your in-laws or your significant others family? I ask because my husbands sister is a BITCH and I a
m trying not to kick her ass. Help!!!

HEY BARNEY


SMOOCHES,

CARMEL BEAUTY

MIA!!

I know that probably nobody even reads my blog now since I have been MIA for a very long time, but between work, school, my angel, and STBH I just haven't had a chance to blog. I have been keeping up with other people's blogs though so I have stayed in the no. Well today I have big news for everybody. Drum roll please



STBH and I are getting MARRIED. Yeah!!! I am excited, nervous, and READY. The butterflies are going to kill me seriously. My work Mom just had me list all the reasons why we want to get married and it kind of had me teary eyed because we have been through so much and to finally get to this point. It has been amazing.

In other news their is a position coming open at my job. I want it really bad, but my supervisor is the type to have someone he thinks should have the position and just go with them. That's what he did for me. :-) It was good then, but it may not work out so well for me now. It would be a nice increase though if I could get it. I hope so cause I need it.

School will be over next week. I have a final on Monday then one on Wednesday and then no more until August. I def need the break. Right now I am just so ready to leave work. I am suppose to leave at 3:30pm to go get ready for our 6pm ceremony, but time is going by so slow. I feel like it is going backwards.

Question of the day: So to all the married/divorced people out there how did you feel on your
wedding day?


Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

YES WE CAN!!!!!!

I was interested in the race of 2004. I was ready for change, but I was not sure of the candiates that we were offered. I am involved in the race of 2008 becasue we NEED change. Our future looks bleak. The current president has not made a change for this nation that we so desperately need. I believe that Obama can. I have not felt so passionate about a person/candiate before. I have never believed as much as I do now that he can make a change for our country if elected. I have links below to serveral different websites that will give you more information on this candiate. I understand others may feel passionate about another canidate which is fine. I really believe though no matter who your canidate is you need to VOTE we will not be heard until we make ourselves heard. One nation, one voice, YES WE CAN!!!

YES WE CAN SONG

BARAK OBAMA WEBSITE

REASEARCH, MAKE A GOOD DECISION FOR YOU, THEN PLEASE PLEASE VOTE!!

EVERY VOTE COUNTS!!

SMOOCHIES,

CARMEL BEAUTY

It's been a while. Did you miss me?

I hope you did cause I missed all of you. I have been checking other blogs all the time. Especially Sylvia Hubbard's blog. I just recently got internet at home and will be able to post more becuase big brother is watching at work. They have installed camera and everything. I am also a part time student. So with the baby, STBH, work and school I am completly busy. I will try to write soon.

Question of the day: Have you been keeping up with the primary? If so what are your thoughts? I am a democrat and I really want Obama, but am afraid that America will not elect an african-american president. I guess I just want to hear from the people out in blog land about what there opinions on the subject are.

Some Closure

The BOY who killed my grandfather has been arrested today. He was only 16 years old, and in the 9th grade. I just don't understand what the world is coming to. I don't even know how to feel. I am not happy, because it does not bring my grandfather back.

Praying for Strength,

Carmel Beauty

Hello All!

First and foremost please please go to Sylvia Hubbard's website and read her new live story. It is good. She has a way of making you fall in love with the people. Read it it is good I promise.

Second, well I know I was suppose to finish Mike and Kyra's story and I will soon I promise life has just been so hectic. I will get to it though really soon.

Third, yesterday me and my STBH had an amazing day. It was perfect as days go. I haven't been that happy in a long time. With all the drama going on in my life recently I needed that. We weren't doing anything spectacular by any means, but the moments in time to me are priceless. I just wanted to tell the world that I am going to marry the best man in the world for me. We have problems, but when it comes down to the come down we got each other's back. Love is priceless if you are fortunate enough to have it hold on to it and never let it go.

Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

Wishing you a Merry Christmas!!

All things considered this christmas was very good. They had a vigil at my chruch last week for my grandfather. It was nice I did not want to go at first, but after the fact I was glad that I did. It gave me a sense of peace. My baby was showed some love this christmas not that she needed to much more toys, but hey she was happy so I was happy. Then my mom got me a DVD player which was nice. It made me laugh it stays in the car though I be damned it someone steals anything else from me. :-) Work is boring it's like only four people here until the 2nd of January. I have like nobody to talk to and tons of work I don't want to do. Well it's time to go home and since I do want to do that I will say



Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

Coming Soon to a Computer near you!

Sylvia Hubbards new live story starts in January! To join in on the ride that is sure to be the best to date click HERE to sign up for email notification. You will also be able to get a sneak peak at the new book.

Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty

BREAK-IN

Yesterday my home, my place of peace was turned into a place of dread. My humble home was broken into yesterday. There were only two things taken during my break-in one was valued at $30 the other was priceless. To someone who will probably remain forever nameless and faceless my security which is priceless to me was worth a DVD player. Truly what exactly is the world coming to? My home was destroyed, I have glass, and clothes everywhere. My love seat is turned over they even when through the baby's room searching. I mean if they were watching my home they should be able to tell that we are not rich at least not with material possessions. I was just starting to feel safe again after my grandfather was murdered going to get his mail and then this has to happen. How much is one person suppose to be able to take. I am really being tested, what I don't understand is why?

Yesterday I wanted to buy a gun. I was all ready to go on my lunch hour today to apply for my gun license. I understood with all my mind, body, heart, and soul what made T.I. feel like he needed to have guns in his home with silencers and infrared beams. I looked at my daughter and thought I would kill for her I thanked the Lord for making sure my family was safe and tried to make all the thoughts of revenge in my mind go away. The anger I have been feeling will eat away at my soul if I let it. I am trying not to, but I am losing patience.

Smoochies,

Carmel Beauty