Thursday, December 27, 2007

Wishing you a Merry Christmas!!

All things considered this christmas was very good. They had a vigil at my chruch last week for my grandfather. It was nice I did not want to go at first, but after the fact I was glad that I did. It gave me a sense of peace. My baby was showed some love this christmas not that she needed to much more toys, but hey she was happy so I was happy. Then my mom got me a DVD player which was nice. It made me laugh it stays in the car though I be damned it someone steals anything else from me. :-) Work is boring it's like only four people here until the 2nd of January. I have like nobody to talk to and tons of work I don't want to do. Well it's time to go home and since I do want to do that I will say


Carmel Beauty

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Coming Soon to a Computer near you!

Sylvia Hubbards new live story starts in January! To join in on the ride that is sure to be the best to date click HERE to sign up for email notification. You will also be able to get a sneak peak at the new book.


Carmel Beauty

Friday, December 7, 2007


Yesterday my home, my place of peace was turned into a place of dread. My humble home was broken into yesterday. There were only two things taken during my break-in one was valued at $30 the other was priceless. To someone who will probably remain forever nameless and faceless my security which is priceless to me was worth a DVD player. Truly what exactly is the world coming to? My home was destroyed, I have glass, and clothes everywhere. My love seat is turned over they even when through the baby's room searching. I mean if they were watching my home they should be able to tell that we are not rich at least not with material possessions. I was just starting to feel safe again after my grandfather was murdered going to get his mail and then this has to happen. How much is one person suppose to be able to take. I am really being tested, what I don't understand is why?

Yesterday I wanted to buy a gun. I was all ready to go on my lunch hour today to apply for my gun license. I understood with all my mind, body, heart, and soul what made T.I. feel like he needed to have guns in his home with silencers and infrared beams. I looked at my daughter and thought I would kill for her I thanked the Lord for making sure my family was safe and tried to make all the thoughts of revenge in my mind go away. The anger I have been feeling will eat away at my soul if I let it. I am trying not to, but I am losing patience.


Carmel Beauty

Wednesday, November 28, 2007


My thoughts for the day I don't have much time, but I have been hoping and praying that they catch my grandfather's killer. I want that man to suffer. I thought about the death penalty, but in the end I felt that was too good for him. I think that we need to come up with those punishments that they have for people in other countries where crime is at a much lower rate. On house last night one of the Doctors said that death is easy it's the living that hard. Truly it is when you think about it. I mean yes I believe in God and I know that there is a Hell, but I want my vengeance now. I bet people would think twice if they know that when they were convicted of murder, rape, molestation, the truly violent crimes against people that either the surviving victim or the closet family member would get to choose there punishment. To me it would give me a sense of justice let a jury of there peers decide if they are guilty but I want to give them the sentence.

Question of the Day: What do you feel are suitable punishments for murder, child molestation, rape, & attempted murder ? If it was decided that a person would get the death penalty I believe they should die in the same manner as the person they killed. One more question umm do you think I'm crazy? .......... I will wait while you think if your answer is what I think it is then



Carmel Beauty

Monday, November 26, 2007

Did you miss me?

I first want to say THANK YOU to everyone for all the love and support. It has truly been a hard time for my family. I am still having nightmares and I am so scary I sometimes want to slap myself. Everyday it gets a little easier and I know the pain will never go away, but hey.

Enough about that I am reading this great story by Sylvia Hubbard called Drawing the line promised to tell ten friends and hopefully I can get the three people who read my blog to check it out.

Mike and Kyra will be wrapped up before the end of the year I promise I have another story idea just wanting to present itself.

My comments for the day are about R. Kelly. I want his lawyer truly I do. I also think that any publicity he receive whether it is good or bad is good for him and I think everybody just needs to stop talking about him. If he did what he is being accused of then they need to put his ass under the jail with a big dude name smalls. If you know what I mean. All this talk about him and Ne-Yo people ain't got nothing better to talk about I am Tired of hearing about it. Why don't people talk about the LOOOONNGEESSSTT trail in American History now that is a story.

Question of the day: Do you think R. Kelly would like it if somebody peed on him?


Carmel Beauty

Monday, October 29, 2007

taking a mini vacation

My mind is just not in the right place right now I have so much anger in me that at times I feel I may explode. At other times I feel afraid I need to work on these things before I can return to posting only a week or two break but if you want to know why I feel this way go to the link below.

My grandfather

Praying for Strength,

Carmel Beauty

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Life or something like it!

Hey Everybody,

Sorry I have have been MIA I hate it when my fellow bloggers do that, but it could not be helped. My little Angel turned 1 on 10/09 so I have been busy being a first time parent spending more money then is necessary on a party she will NEVER remember. Also I don't know if I have mentioned it before, but when I went into labor with my daughter my sister in law was also pregnant and when she came to visit me. Guess what she went into labor and had her baby HOURS before I had my angel. So guess what I was one PISSED person that day. Anywho me and the sister in law do not get along never have and probably never will. Well needless to say everyone wanted to throw there parties on the same day and my gut told me to say NO well I didn't listen and the party did not make my angel happy. She is always just about ready to cunk out after day care because she doesn't sleep well with others in the room she is just to nosy. Anywho she cried almost the whole time. Now for a little more background information the Mama STBH mama treats her grandchildren differently. For instance she has four grand kids one is me and STBH the other four are the sister in law's. Me and STBH called her the other day and she told us she wanted to spend time with her grand kids so she went to pick up the other three. Mind you she has NEVER come to get my baby and spend time with her. So you know that the party was not my favorite. She bought my precious prissy little girl who did not even want to get cake and icing on her hands a little boy motorcycle. I mean it is red and blue and has peddles this for a little girl who just took her first steps 2 months ago. But the other little girl she bought a little pink and green bike without peddles that can be pushed from behind. That is just one of the ways that tried to play my baby that day so needless to say I was ready to open a can of whup your motherfucking ass before I left.

In other news have you heard about the boy shooting up the school. This is just too much I am such a worrier and I don't know how I will be able to send my daughter to school when the time comes I have a problem sending her to day care now.

Question of the day: We have a new lady in our department who is annoying and just a little off. This chick is so bad they through a party for her when she left her other department. Am I destined to end up working with the dumbest, most annoying, ungrateful, unable to do anything for themselves, lazy, and crazy people in America? If so do you think I could plead bad luck in my defense when I crack the fuck up and go postal on everyone?


Carmel Beauty

Monday, October 8, 2007

Yes it's ALIVE!!!!

This is going to be short and to the point I'm extremely busy today also my life right now is boring. I want to finish the Mike and Kyra story up in the next two weeks then start another also my next major topic will be concerning prisons I think. It's something that has affected a major part of my life throughout the years and I really want to get a feeling for how everybody else view the system. Let's see other than that remember I was telling yall about my situation with getting this job how everything was going to change well I have covered two hurdles. One I have found a new daycare for my angel she starts on Nov. 1 and two I have found affordable health care service for her. So my last hurdle will be to find an apartment/ preferable a house for rent that I can afford. I have till February which is really right around the corner. I miss everybody nobody comments anymore, but I do see that I still have lurkers. Well I gots to go.


Carmel Beauty

BTW if anybody has been watching Desperate Housewives please catch me up on what the HELL is going on with Edie didn't she die last season?

Wednesday, September 26, 2007





Thursday, September 20, 2007


I have already written a post dedicated to the JEAN 6, if you have not read it please do so at this time. Remember this is not a battle against black & white it is against INJUSTICE of all kinds. The fight does not end here. This fight began a long time ago and today shows just one of the many times we have fought against injustice. So everyone black, white, yellow, & etc. remember "IF YOU DON'T STAND FOR SOMETHING YOU WILL FALL FOR ANYTHING."


Carmel Beauty

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Thank You & TMI Tuesday!

Good morning everyone,

I don't have time to post much but I wanted to say thanks for all the congrats and advice. Much appreciated!!! Now on to TMI Tuesday.

1. What is one thing a your significant other could do to you to rock your world? Well he is almost perfect, but I would have to say that I would like to experiment more. I also agree with Weekends more massages would be greeeeaaaaaaaatttt!!

2. Which super power (ability to turn invisible, ability to read people's thoughts, or invulnerability) would you take and why? I want Phoebe's power from charmed. I would love to know peoples thoughts and if they are telling the truth or not also know the future would kick ass to. Throw in the power to levitate and I am good to go.

3. Would you rather be tied up or tie someone else up? Why? I would rather be tied up. STBH would never let me tie him up which is good I don't want to be dominated, but I wouldn't at ALL mind being submissive.

4. What is your best physical and non physical asset? Physical would be my DD's. non-physical would be my sweet personality.

5. If they were naming new Dwarves beyond the seven what would your name be and why?
insatiable (if you don't know why guess)


Carmel Beauty

Friday, September 14, 2007

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!


So my bad day turned out to not be as bad as I thought it was. I mean I got the job so my interview couldn't have been that bad right? Anywho, I have been super busy trying to get my office together sign all the new paper work. Life has just been a big mess for me. My daughter also potentially has another ear infection. If she does she will be referred to a Ear specialist. The thought of her going through surgery is scary, but the thought of her being deaf is worse. So all my praying people just pray for our family. Also the situation I mentioned in a previous post about me and STBH having an issue should be coming to a head at the end of this month beginning of the next. So please just pray for our family we are going to need it in the next coming month.

My new job seems like it will be something that I will like. I love working here I just need someone to come in and help me during the day. I need the help seriously I have so much work to do I don't even have time to type this up. Also due to my increase in salary I have to do the following:

  1. Move (Due to my new economic status we make too much money to live here)
  2. Find a new Daycare ( Due to my new economic status I would have to pay $209.00 a week for her current day care)
  3. Get health insurance for my Angel ( The insurance through my new job is $159.00 to 259.00 a month depending on the coverage I choose)
So after all the changes we have to make I will actually have less money at the end of the month, but I have job security and an opportunity to go back to school. STBH and I will both be going back to school while my granny watches the baby on nights we are both at school. The next couple of years will be hard, but well worth it. The thing that makes it all worth it is in the end I will have a beautiful healthy well rounded daughter, and a loving caring supportive sexy husband by my side. STBH and I talked about it and have decided to address the most pressing issues first then the less and just take everything one day at a time. Hopefully by January or Summer of next year STBH and I will be in school.

Question of the day: I thought because we decided we both want to go back to school that STBH would agree that now is not the time to procreate again we need to wait till we finish school (I only have two more years to get my degree.) Do you know what this fool said, and I quote " you can take online classes." Why can we agree on some many other things, just not this? Do you think he would be mad if he found out I have been taking shhhhhhh... birth control pills don't tell


Carmel Beauty

Monday, September 10, 2007


"Open your eyes Bitch" said a very familiar voice to Kyra. "I know you not sleep as you want me to believe." stated her kidnapper.

"How are you alive? I I I kil-led you." said Kyra. "You tried but obviously you didn't succeed, but when I kill you trust you will be dead." he said. Kyra then heard someone scream really loud before she passed out.

On the other side of town Mike is pacing in front of Kyra's office waiting on her to come out. After the last time he made a scene in her office he wasn't allowed to go in. Not that he really gave a fuck, but he also wanted to catch Kyra by surprise. Today is the day.

I will put my plan in motion, I know that once all is said and done she will see that my way is best. I know she will be with me then. It is already 6:30pm Kyra should not still be at work what is keeping her.

Ring! Ring! "Sup?" says Mike. "Something is wrong? I called her office, homegirl left for the day at 5:45pm." states B. "What the Fuck?I have been out here waiting on her to show since 6pm. Where the fuck could she be? I am going to go to our house and see if she is there. " said Mike. "Ok, I am going to check around the way, this is strange she had plans with me today. She should have gotten in touch with me a long time ago. Something ain't right. Hit me back if you hear anything I will do the same." said B then he disconnected the call.

Getting into his car Mike goes to the house. Once he parks his car in the garage and sees that Kyra's car is not there he is sure she is not there as well. As he is about to start the car and back out of the garage he hears something that sounds like glass break then he sees the light of flash lights. Mike then grabs his 9mm from under the seat checks to make sure it is loaded with one in the chamber, and slowly proceeds to the house. Mike starts checking the downstairs first. The garage door lets him into the kitchen as he is walking he notices the disarray of the house cabinets open and everything has been dumped on the floor. Walking from the kitchen to the dining room, to the foyer he sees the front door open. Thinking the intruders have left he lowers his gun just as he is about to put it in his holster he is hit from behind with the but of a gun.

When Kyra comes to the first thing she notices is Mike in the room with her. She can't tell if he is alive or dead. She kneels down to check is pulse and notices that he is alive just unconscious. "Mike baby, please wake up?" she says while gently shaking him. "Mike please I need you baby wake up? she notices him start to move so she continues to gently shake him to help him awake. "Kyra what is going on? Where am I at?" states Mike.

Suddenly Kyra kidnapper opens the door and states "That's a good question I will be happy to answer it for you? " ....

I will try to write more before the end of the week.

Please comment and let me know what you think.


Carmel Beauty

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

My Day!!

It all began in the court room. I had to go to court today again from my car accident. (check previous post if you don't know what I am talking about) Anywho, the ASSHAT DA told me I could continue my case, but since it had been so long 1 continuance already I had to go to court with the police officer the next time and either plead guilty or not guilty. Little FUCKER I didn't have the money for the court costs so what the FUCK FUCK FUCKITY FUCK was I suppose to do.

In other news I got to work about 40minutes late. The guy who would be my supervisor if I got the job I applied for back in June asked me to come to his office around 10am today he needed to speak with me for approximately 30-45mins. My first impression was what did I do wrong. He told me nothing and got someone to watch the phones for me. When I get there guess what he does? If you guessed that he began my interview you just won ONE MILLION DOLLARS. (JUST JOKING) Anywho, I think it went well even though I was caught off guard A LOT. At least I didn't have the opportunity to get nervous. I will know by Friday if I got the job. ( I will keep everybody posted)

Right now angel face is trying to help me type and it is not working. I may post more tomorrow.

Question of the day: Was my day good or what? No really I want to know your opinion.


Carmel Beauty

Friday, August 31, 2007

Touching My Heart

I usually don't post twice in one day but I have too. I need everyone to read the following story and PLEASE sign the petition:

In a small highly segregated rural Louisiana town of Jena in September 2006, a black student asked permission from school administrators to sit under the shade of a tree commonly reserved for the enjoyment of white students. School officials advised the black students to sit wherever they wanted and they did. The next day, three nooses, in the school colors, were hanging from the same tree. The Jena high school principal found that three white students were responsible and recommended expulsion. The white superintendent of schools over-ruled the principal and gave the students a three day suspension, saying that the nooses were a youthful stunt. Black students decided to resist and organized a sit-in under the tree to protest the lenient treatment given to the noose-hanging white students.Racial tensions remained elevated throughout the fall.

On Monday, December 4 2006, a white student who allegedly had been racially taunting black students in support of the students who hung the nooses got into a fight with black students. Allegedly, the white student was taken to the hospital treated, released, reportedly attended a social function later that evening. As a result of this incident, six black Jena students were arrested and charged with attempted second degree murder. All six were expelled from school.

The six charged were: 17-year-old Robert Bailey Junior whose bail was set at $138,000; 17-year-old Theo Shaw - bail $130,000; 18-year-old Carwin Jones--bail $100,000; 17-year-old Bryant Purvis--bail $70,000; 16 year old Mychal Bell, a sophomore in high school who was charged as an adult and for whom bail was set at $90,000; and a still unidentified minor. On the morning of the trial, the District Attorney reduced the charges from attempted second degree murder to second degree aggravated battery and conspiracy. Aggravated battery in Louisiana law demands the attack be with a dangerous weapon. The prosecutor was allowed to argue to the jury that the tennis shoes worn by Bell could be considered a dangerous weapon. When the pool of potential jurors was summoned, fifty people appeared, all white.

The jury deliberated for less than three hours and found Mychal Bell guilty on the maximum possible charges of aggravated second degree battery and conspiracy. He faces up to a maximum of 22 years in prison. The rest of the Jena 6 await similar trials. Theodore Shaw is due to go on trial shortly. Mychal Bell is scheduled to be sentenced July 31. If he gets the maximum sentence he will not be out of prison until he is nearly 40. THE MESSAGE:· As Chairman Julian Bond stated, "This is an American outrage that demonstrates the continuing shame of racial division in our country. Join us in making it one of the last."

· In light of the circumstances surrounding Mychal Bell's case, we urge all concerned citizens to support the call for a new trial.

· It is unacceptable to selectively enforce the law based on race. Prosecutorial discretion should be used in a fair and equitable manner.

· The Jena Six should be tried by juries that reflect the racial and ethnic demographics of Jena, Louisiana.

· The hanging of nooses is not a "youthful stunt" or "prank." It is a hate crime. Such hate crimes should not be tolerated at any school. Jena High School must establish a curriculum which promotes cultural sensitivity and understanding.

· The NAACP calls on Louisiana Governor Kathleen B. Blanco and Louisiana Attorney General Charles C. Foti to thoroughly investigate and monitor the trials of Mychal Bell, Robert Bailey, Jr., Theo Shaw, Carwin Jones, Bryant Purvis and John Doe. The Governor and State Attorney General should do everything in their power to ensure that these young men's constitutional rights are protected.

If you have any questions, call Angela Ciccolo at the National Headquarters at (410) 580-5777

This is wrong very very wrong as a united people of every race please let us stand up and fight against this injustice.

Praying for peace,

Carmel Beauty

Pass the Word YA Heard!!!!!

STRESSED THE FUCK OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That describes how I feel to a T!! Yesterday at work (by the way my home life is going okay right now for the most part) Dory came to me and asked me if I was going to be busy today. Apparently her supervisor and mine until I get this new job if I get it told her to ask me with help on a project she is working on. Now dory claims she does not have time to do her work, but takes off every Wednesday and talks to several people throughout the day A LOT. Me being the person I am even though I have plently of my own work to do decide to help her but only for yesterday and because I am trying to make a good impersion so I can get this new job. She told me the WRONG thing to do so I give up. All day yesterday everybody said I had a grit face and asked me what was wrong. My supervisor that asked me to do this in the first place as me if I need some caffine or somebody to lay hands on me. I work yall all day from the time I get here till the time I leave and I am still behind, because I am doing the job THREE people were doing by MYSELF. Don't nobody help me with my duties. I am sick and tired of this bullshit. If I don't get this stupid fucking job I am going to go the FUCK off on everybody!!!!!!

Okay I am done for now with my rant. In other news I thought everybody had forgotten about my short story. I will write another entry this weekend I promise MUM.

Question of the day: Does anybody know how to assemble an assualt rifle or make a bomb? I'm just curious it could be useful information one day :-)


Carmel Beauty

Monday, August 27, 2007


I am so bored right now it is pathetic it's not like I don't have anything to do I have tons of work I just don't want to do it. Help!!! I have nothing to write today I can't get interested in anything. I am not going to bore yall two so I will post more either later today or tomorrow.


Carmel Beauty

Friday, August 24, 2007


I work with a bunch of DUMMIES!!! Not everybody, but one in particular then when you name her you think of about 4 more. It is truly ridiculous. I mean Dory I have told you about her in a previous post where I don't remember, but anywho. She reminds me of bugs bunny because when you tell her how to do something (mind you this lady makes way more then I do and has been here way longer then I have) she says something to the effect of "W-W-What do y-y-you mean?" People will not tell her stuff just so they don't have to spend HOURS explaining the same thing over and over for her to still NOT understand anyway. I mean she is a nice lady but that does not get the work done I need done right. Now you all know the saying you can't teach and old dog new tricks well shit you can't teach her old tricks. I am trying to make this office more efficient for everybody benefit and my sanity. It is not working. If you don't hear from me in a couple days that either means I'm in the loony bin telling my therapist that she made me do I just couldn't tell her how to open the L drive not one more time I mean Doc you got to understand I said it about 20 times please don't send me away forever I will never strangle another person I promise as long as they don't ask me the same question more then twice, or I will be in jail trying to act all hard while the other inmates are asking me what I am in for I have to say well I flipped the fuck out on this lady then they say why what she do to you hurt your baby girl, your momma, what take your money why you flip out on home girl oh she asked me the same question 10 times and I just couldn't take it anymore. On second thought that would probably be a good thing cause all the inmates would think I was crazy and LEAVE ME ALONE. All well I know I ain't about to do that I would miss STBH and my ANGEL too much, but the thought helps me through the hard times.

Question of the Day: Do you know some things I could do to annoy her on the sneak tip? I would love to watch her go crazy for a couple of hours. HEHE!! HAHA!!


Carmel Beauty

Thursday, August 23, 2007

News Read All About It!!

Let's see what is going on in my life:

  • I got some good news. Remember the job I was telling everybody about well my "temporary" supervisor that would be my supervisor if I got the job told me yesterday that I am still a good candidate for the job and that interviews will begin within the next 2 weeks.
  • My little Angel seems to be doing better. Today she was not fussy when I dropped her off at daycare. I believe her ear infection is doing better.
  • My apartment complex has stated they will repair the door but only are required by lease to do exterminations 3 times a year so I will be on a cleaning frenzy this weekend. I got information from a great website from Weekends though so again Thank you very much.
  • I had fun being tagged so I will play again sometime in the future.
  • My car is having problems AGAIN!! I am about ready to give it up and just get another except I really don't have money for that or to fix it so I am stuck between a rock and a hard place.
  • STBH and I are still doing well he is out of town for a couple of days and I miss him something terrible. I hate when he leaves me. :-(
  • I have officially run out of things to say for now, but if I think of more I will post later.

Question of the day: I have changed my blog background do you like?


Carmel Beauty

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

I have been tagged!!!!!!

*What side of the heart do you draw first? Right
*Can you dive without plugging your nose? I can, but don't it burns.
*What color is your phone? Home phone is white Cell is Red
*Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours? STBH
*Where are you right now?At work in my office pretending to work
*How do you feel about carrots? Raw good Cooked Bad
*How many chairs at the dining room table? N/A
*Who is the best Spice Girl? I don't really know who they are expect Scary Spice.
*Do you know what time it is? Please say it is 4:20
*What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator? Scream faint wake up and scream some more if you can't tell I am terrified of enclosed places
*What's your favorite kind of gum?winter fresh
*T or F: All is fair in love and war? False
*Do you use words that you don't know the meaning to? No
*Do you like to sleep? Yes too much I miss it
*Do you know which US states don't use Daylight Savings? Nope and Don't care
*Do you know the song Sugar We're Goin' Down? Nope
*Do you want a bright yellow '06 mustang? Nope Purple yes Yellow no
*What's something you've always wanted? Married with children
*Do you wear a lot of black? yes I wear a lot of dark colors
*Describe your hair. Dark brown shoulder length.
*Are you an adult? By some peoples standards
*Who is/are your best friends? STBH , Alexis
*Do you have a tan? No
*Are you a television addict? I love Charmed, Buffy the Vampire Slayer , and Sex in the City since these don't come on anymore I don't watch TV as much.
*Do you enjoy spending time with your mom? NO We don't get along very well.
*Are you a sugar freak? Nope just a Freak.
*What is your favorite movie? Love Jones
*What's your sign? Taurus
*Where do you wish you were right now? With STBH and my Angel
*Who did you copy this from? Weekends
*How do you know them? My blogger friend
*Would you have sex with them? UH No
*What brand of shirt are you wearing? cheap

*Have you ever smoked anything? Did I mention I wish it was 4:20

Have a Great Evening Everyone!! I lost all my links so if you are missing, know which ones are missing, or can help me find the link to Tanner please let me know.


Carmel Beauty

Monday, August 20, 2007

A little random information, A Lot of uninteresting facts

** Warning this is written by a mother who has only had 3 hours of continuous sleep and needs a nap***

Last week I took TWO Days off from work. Day one I was sick as a dog. I didn't want to take this day off, but I just couldn't make it in. Day Two which was Wednesday I had to go to court. You remember the traffic accident I had well I got a ticket. So I go to court at 7:40am after dropping my Angel off at daycare. My thinking was that since court doesn't start till 9am I will be early and get to leave early. I was WRONG in my thought process, because when I got there it was a line all the way to china. So I am standing behind this chick and she just starts talking to me telling me TMI. This is what I learned.

  1. She served 30 days in jail for 10 worthless checks.
  2. She was in court last time for a hit and run she is currently on probation for.
  3. Her boyfriend came downstairs from the 5th floor and told her where he had court at today. ( My only thought to this was please don't have any children)
  4. She talks a lot.

Then the man behind me advised me this was his second traffic ticket and told me how the system works. Also that there would be a record number of 1900 people in court today. So I waited and waited and WAITED to be told that I have to get information from my insurance company and come back on September 5th. I am not doing my happy dance.

My apartment complex is giving me trouble that is starting to make me trip the FUCK out. Last month my door was replaced with a new "better" one. When this happen a couple days later we had to stay with my grandma, because we didn't have any transportation. Last week we finally got a working car. We move back home and I begin to notice immediate problems in the form of ants everywhere. I did not leave food out so I am not able to understand what the problem is. Then while cleaning the hallway by the door (sweeping, mopping) I notice where the ants are coming from. They come in the front door like they fucking pay rent. I also can not lock the door without almost breaking the key and the last straw was last night. I was laying in bed with my feverish daughter and a bug flew from my bathroom into my bed room. I don't even know what kind of bug this was it didn't look like it should have wings, because it then began to crawl before I killed it. I HATE any and all bugs. I called the apartment complex last week Thursday and Friday. I called again today and they said the problem has been repaired but that is a lie because I still see ants coming in daily I can't stay there with this issue the manager is suppose to be calling me back soon.

My daughter has her 5th ear infection since the end of May and I am just NOT happy about that. I need her to have some relieve and her doctor to do a better job or I will have to get her another one, because this is just too much.

And to top off this really long post I am going to give you the icing on the cake. STBH wants to have another child. He came out point blank and said he is ready for another one.

Question of the day: If I shoot, stab, beat, & burn STBH do you think I they will think I was trying to kill him? If so with all the stress I currently have do you think I can plead temporary insanity? I.E. The ants made me do it.

Looking for shelter,

Carmel Beauty


My angel has yet another ear infection. I just may tie my tubes. Thanks Weekends I will try that stuff I have also called my apartment complex THREE times and sent and email since I wrote this post and the Manager is suppose to be coming to my house this afternoon.

Monday, August 13, 2007

Hey Everybody!!

So I just looked at my visitors side bar and I am on my way to being a well read blog. I hadn't really been paying attention, but I over 1220. So I am doing my happy dance. I know I was kinda MIA last week. I had such good intentions this weekend to write since I didn't last weekend well guess what everybody. I good intentions went to hell in a hand basket. Right now I am so congested I can barely breath without either sneezing or blowing my nose. It is annoying. Allergies it has been HIGH 90's to even a record breaking 105 here in my wonderful state so I have been burning hot as well as annoyed.

Anywho, last week that bad thing I thought was going to happen well it fooled me, because that issue me and stbh have been having has actually gotten some good news. It's not over but I can see clearer now that the rain is less than before.

In other news, my stbh has been maturing on me I am starting to feel like the child less like the adult.(Yeah!!) I think this is great. We have always clicked in a way that was eerie to me, but now he knows what I am thinking and feeling and express thought and feelings along the same lines. With our wedding to be approaching soon this really helps me to realize what a good decision we are making. I know everything won't be peaches and cream, but I'm lovin it.

Remember a few post ago I asked about children he just wants to have them till we can't have any more. He is stuck on the number ten well I want to give yall and update on the situation. I still bring it up every once in a while to try to gauge how far I have brought him back to reality. Well we talked on Sunday and his current scenario involved us living on a farm growing all of our food, me making clothes, and our children doing chores. I told him I am strictly a city girl and this would NOT WORK, but I am not sure if he was serious or not I am praying NOT. If he is that puts us back about 20 paces in my thinking that we are on the same page.

Question of the day: STBH wants to try out something new and I wanted to know if any of yall have tried it. He wants to get some of the cheese from the boxed Mac n' cheese boxes heat it a little and place some on my snatch and lick it off. If you have tried this let me know. If you have tried other things please let me know what you liked and didn't just curious.

I'm Lovin it,

Carmel Beauty

Thursday, August 9, 2007

I have not dropped off the planet, but I may want to.

Hey Everybody,

I have been sooooooooooo busy this last week plus for the last couple of days I have had writers block and have had no ideas on what to write. Being both sleepy and busy just do not work well together. My daughter's teething is keeping the household up at night, and work is WORK. I am still doing the job that previously 3 people were doing and it is getting to me know. Big Time. Sorry I haven't posted in a while I am fine tuning the ending of Mike and Kyra's story so I should have that completed by Monday and just post it all at one time.

I can't write more now but I will on either tomorrow or Friday.

Question of the day: Does anybody know how to make me disappear like magic for a couple of days then reappear like nothing happened?

AAAAHHHHHHHHH (screaming I feel better now :-) ),

Carmel Beauty

Friday, August 3, 2007

Trouble on the Horizon??

Do you ever get the feeling that something bad is a coming? Like at any minute now your going to get that call that something has just happened. I feel like that now it's a horrible feeling, and I am not sure how to shake it. So taking time to work on Mike and Kyra's story, and a few other things around the house hopefully will help a little. I am such a control freak because I really just want something to do, lists I can make, arrangements, something. I don't like leaving things in the hands of others. I am probably not making sense right now and for that I apologize. Remember a few posts ago I told yall me and stbh were having an issue well I am trying to help both of us to get through it, and right now I feel so helpless. I'm afraid to do the wrong thing, but I am more afraid to do nothing at all. That's why I have not been able to post my normal insightful post as of late.

Well I have to get to work, because if I don't do it it won't get done.

Praying for patience, wisdom, and strength,

Carmel Beauty

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

I am so sleeeeply!!! (Yawn!!)

If you can't tell from the title bar I am extermely sleepy. My daughter went to the doctor friday and she is cutting 4 teeth two on top two on the bottom, plus she has an ear infection. So me and stbh have not slept in almost a week. We take turns but with both of us being first time parents we can't sleep when it's our turn. We both want to make it better it is ridiculous.

Anywho, here are just a few random thoughts from me.

1) Work is still crazy.
2) I will be writing up at least 2 chapters of Mike and Kyra's story this weekend maybe even
three and post those next week I want to go ahead and finish that story, because I have a
new one running through my mind as I type.
3) Hopefully my car will be working properly today.
4) If anybody knows of any blogs that write a story let me know I love to read.
5) If you haven't already check out my girl Sylvia Hubbard her book SEX WEED is really
getting GOOD!!! The link is on my side bar if you need it. Please go post a comment
asking her to write another chapter because I NEED TO KNOW MORE!!! ( Yes Sylvia I
hope you are reading this)

Question of the day: Do you think anybody would notice if I took a nap?

Praying for rest,

Carmel Beauty

Friday, July 27, 2007

It's all about sex baby!! It's all about you and me!!

Do you remember that song by Salt n' Pepa. They used to be the shit!!! That and push it used to be my favorite songs when I was younger. I have always been a closet freak. To the world at large I was a good girl. Honor roll, never missed a day of school, debate team, cheerleader, Class president, etc. Then freshman year in college I decided to lose my virginity. Then everything I had been holding back all those years came out. It was like it suddenly became night time all the time cause the freak came out at night. I was safe, did not ever suck dick but almost anything else I was game. After a while I realized that the fun I was looking for I was not having. I started having sex at 18, but I didn't have my first orgasm until 25. I have never told my fiancee this and I want yall to keep it a secret with me (pinkie swear) , but I had my first orgasm with him. It has felt good in the past, but I never had that earth shattering experience before him. When I realized that all that time I had been searching for something and I finally found it I was scared. I mean all my other relationship I was like a dude hit it and quit it. I saw what love could do to a person my parents was examples of that so I was not interested in that at ALL.

We began as first which was great to me then lovers he kinda stumbled and fell into the pussy one day. His dick is HUGE and I had been celibate (by choice) for a while about 11months. So it hurt a lot but not that I don't want anymore but that DAMN I need to reevaluate (Do you they come in this size? Will he move or damage things that I need?) this thing right here yeah it felt good, but the pain wouldn't let me get into it like I wanted to. That next time was off the hook yall I mean he couldn't bang me hard enough. He is the reason I now like it rough even if it is slow it always has to be hard. So if you haven't figured it out yet that was when I had my first orgasm.

STBH (soon to be hubby) called me at work today and told me he wants some pussy. It throw me, because I was thinking about his gorgeous dick and I hadn't gotten any this morning as usual. We usually do it about 3 times a day (morning, after work, night) so when we get off our cycle it can be frustrating. Who am I kidding even on our cycle I want that boy like nobodies business.

With the new addition to our family things have slowed down a little. It's not a bad thing it's just how it is. So we constrain our selves more now because she is getting older and understands more. That's why this call was so uhm.... Now I have sex on the brain with 4 more hours left at work. What is a girl to do?

Question of the day: Do you think a wet spot will show since I have on dark jeans?

Looking for a way to dry the wetness,

Carmel Beauty

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

A LOT of Random, A little pictures

First off I have a few bugs with the car that need to be repaired before I can start driving it. Nothing major there. I just have to wait and I have never been a patient person at all. I just hope it doesn't take longer than today to repair. I need my car by this weekend though my little family has plans.

Second my baby girl is growing so fast it is scary. I feel like I just gave birth to her yesterday and already she is standing on her own for five minutes at a time. At daycare they are moving her up to the next class. She is going to be with the toddlers now. I know this means that she will be moving along even faster. She will be walking soon and I am excited and terrified at the same time.

Third since I don't want to end up like this I better find a better way to deal with my co-workers than strangle them because even though I still want to I have no intentions of going to jail.
Question of the day: Can you tell I just figured out how to add pictures?
Looking for an anger management class,
Carmel Beauty

Tuesday, July 24, 2007


I am currently at work. I have to key in data for about five different people a day. This data should be given to me in it's correct form with all of the information. The ONLY thing I should have to do is input the data. After that is done then it is then re-audited by another person. Now I say re-audited because the five people who give it to me is suppose to audit BEFORE I get it. THIS NEVER EVER EVER HAPPENS!!!!! Every time I key something I have to audit it at the same time because it is almost never correct.

What is really I mean really pissing me off is on of the main offenders is the person in the job for which I recently applied. I was told I was second choice but that she had more experience then me and was a better candidate. Now granted she has worked in a different department for 7 years and I have only been her for going on three years most of which has been in a temporary position, but this is ridiculous. It doesn't matter if they have more experience If I am doing all the work and not getting paid for it.

Another example of her laziness and ineptitude is that the person who had this job before her would do most as in 95% of there own keying as well as all the other work they do during the day. This lady does not any of her own keying also she has to send out invoices to different locations and once a month she has only been here for two months, and the last two times I have had to type up the labels and mail out the invoices because she conveniently had to take the day off when they needed to be mailed. When she is here she spends most of her time in Dory's (I will explain dory later) office they used to work together. I am tired of the abuse the job I am currently doing was done by three people. One left to work for a different company and the other moved upstate. So I am doing all the work on my own and the asshat doesn't do hardly anything, and the things she does do are WRONG.

Now not by any means do I think I am perfect, because I am not I make mistakes but when you have to tell someone over, over, and over about the same mistake I think that person is just being careless.

Dory I got her name from the movie Finding Nemo if you have seen it she reminds me of the fish that had Alzheimer's. Well the Dory is a trip and acts just like that fish it's crazy she is suppose to "re-audit" the work after I have keyed it. Guess what it is still wrong, because she doesn't have the slightest idea what she is doing either.

Now for the mistakes that I notice I will correct, but I don't go searching for them. I don't have time. I just have entirely to much work to do. I don't even have time to type this. I do feel a little better though and that was the reason for this post.

I know I have made several grammatical errors sorry hope you can understand my rant if not please let me know and I will help you out :-).

Question of the day: Is is wrong that I just noticed like A LOT of errors and said fuck it I ain't fixin' it and went on about my business like I didn't even notice it?

Breathing FIRE,

Carmel Beauty

Monday, July 23, 2007


Good morning all,

I have found a car. Also the situation I was referring to that hubby and I are going through seems to be improving at least I am praying that it is. We are still making wedding plans and trying to keep everything moving along at an even pace. It's hard when something knocks you off your block, but we seem to be making it.

In other news, since our recent scare with pregnancy we have been talking about additional children. During our discussions I assumed we were on the same page. That is until last night. His mother, him, & I was talking and out of no where she suggested that if we did not want to have more children now then we need to be on some form of birth control. I brought the subject up to him once we were home I asked if he wanted me to get on a better form of birth control than what we currently use (nothing). He said no. So I asked him to clarify. He stated that we will be blessed with the children God feels we should have whether that be 2 or 10. He NEVER at anytime wants me to do anything to prevent us making a baby. I told him I don't want to have an additional child right now. I thought we were under agreement I was wrong. He wants to have another NOW he feels God will let us know when is the right time. I want to discuss this issue he feels it's not open for discussion. Now I know it's my body I can do what I want. We don't believe in abortion for ourselves, although I am free choice that is just my person choice. I do believe in birth control. We have discussed children at length know we don't want to have more then 4 if that many I don't understand how this never came up before. We will discuss this again he just isn't aware of it. I will not be pregnant every year or have more then four children so something will give.

So my question today: Do you feel in this day and age that God should be your birth control? That he won't give you more children then you are suppose to have. Why or Why not?

Studying the latest birth control methods,

Carmel Beauty

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Car Accident!!!!

My daughter and I were in a car accident yesterday. We are both ok, but my car is totaled. Right now I am taking things one minute at time. I am glad that my daughter is okay so I am going to just take everything as it comes. I am going to be taking a break from writing depending on how I feel, but it will only be for a couple of days if that long.


Carmel Beauty

Friday, July 13, 2007

The simple pleasures!!

I feel old today. I miss the times when I would be happy with a piece of candy and watching Saved by the Bell on TV. When the most I had to do was keep my room clean, my grades up, and my legs closed. Those were the times no responsibilities and life was good.

Today I got that happy feeling again, but for a different reason. I am working on a project at work which requires me to do something in excel and well I did it. (doing my happy dance) This happiness made me think about all of lives simple pleasures. Some people only get happy about the BIG things out of life like a raise, vacation, graduation, etc. I don't think it's bad to celebrate the big things in life, but the small things should be celebrated as well. We never know when our time on this earth will end and I want to end with a bang myself. I want to know that everyday I was here I celebrated ALL all of my accomplishments whether they be BIG or small. Especially with my daughter. Example if she gets an A on a spelling test I will celebrate that just as much as if she gets an A for English for that semester. Every little pat on the back gives people that encouragement to do more strive for better.

In closing look to those around you and yourself and when an accomplishment is made whether is be little or HUGE celebrate it. Make sure that you can say yesterday I did a little thing, today I will do a Big thing, and tomorrow I will do a HUGE thing.

Question of the day: When was the last time you celebrated some accomplishment whether is be yours or someone else's ? If it has been a while then take a minute and do the happy dance with me?


Carmel Beauty

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Title Bar Finally Working Ya!!!!

Ya'll I am feeling so in love with the hubby right now. I can't explain it, but I am going to try. He has been so attentive, just listening when I talk, we have a connection, and he understands how I feel before I even put it into words. Now some would say this is a good thing me well I am just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Are we allowed to be this happy. I keep trying to roll with it truly I am, but in my experience something bad always happens to ruin the good. I could be wrong this time so I'm trying really hard to let it go. I know he doesn't even know I have a blog let alone read it but Baby Love I love you!!!!!!! I have been hearing that song Always and Forever in my head for like the last three days. I was so tired this morning, because my baby girl did not want to sleep last night and he just made me feel better this morning even though we were both tired. He has a way of just making all my bad days feel good. Now he ain't perfect, but what person is? I just wanted to get that out.

My question of the day: I want to give him a surpise he will never forget something that will knock his socks off. I don't want it to be a rush job I want it to take a few days of planning and be really romantic and inexpensive cause we have already started planning for the wedding and even with us getting married at the JOP it is still going to be expensive. So if anyone has any ideas let me know.


Carmel Beauty

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Mike & Kyra Part IIII

Sitting at her desk finishing up her work day Kyra begins to feel queasy jumping up from her desk she goes to her private bathroom making it to the toilet just in time to dump the contents of her stomach. As she was rinsing her mouth out with mouthwash she was thinking to herself.

If I didn't know any better I would think I was pregnant. I take my pills on time though everyday. I never miss a day because I just can't have any children now.

Kyra then goes to her desk and picks up her purse and jacket walks out the door and out to her car. Just as she is unlocking the door she feels a hand come over her mouth and one grabbing her by the waist picking her up off the ground and carrying her. She is then shoved into the of a van. After she and her attacker get in it begins moving. "Look Kyra, if you stay quiet and sit still I will not have to gag and tie you up do you understand?" her attacker states. Kyra then nods her head up and down that she does.

As soon as she is released she lunges for the door not caring that the van is in motion she knows if she is to survive she needs to escape. Before she can get the door open she is knocked on the back of the head. The first time does not knock her out but after the second time she is unconscious.

Hearing a loud thud when she falls back the driver asks "Mikey, you didn't hurt her did you he said if you hurt her he won't pay us?" the driver said. "Nah, I didn't hurt her Mico I just knocked her out so she won't give us any trouble." "Boy she look good though nice Phat ass pull over so I can get me some right quick nobody will ever know." Mikey said. "Hell naw, you crazy not only will he not pay us if he find out he will kill us, that man is ruthless fuck you I dying for no pussy." "Plus the bitch is unconscious I like it better when they fight." Mico said with a sick smile on his face.

Once they reached there destination a big warehouse out on the marina they placed Kyra in a room with a TV, bed, bathroom, and a big suitcase. Closing the door they went in search of the man who hired them to abduct Kyra.

Kyra pretended to still be unconscious until they left once the door closed she surveyed her surroundings trying to find a way out. There has to be a way out of here but I only see a door and very high windows that I know I can't reach. I don't even know who has kidnapped me. I haven't been raped and I am still alive so why am I here. Something is wrong. I'm glad they didn't check me for weapons. I always keep my pocket knife in my snatch. Like visa I don't leave home without it. I wish I had a gun though. I hear footsteps so I am going to lay back down and pretend sleep again.

While laying there with her eyes closed she hears the door open. ......


Carmel Beauty

** 10:26am 07/12/07 Edit the more comments I recieved the quicker you will recieve the next post**

Monday, July 9, 2007

This makes no sense:

Okay as you all know I recently had a pregnancy scare and well the results are in and Aunt Flo entered the building on Saturday. And guess what everyone you will never guess not in a million gazillion years. We both are a little disappointed I'm not pregnant. Me more so then him but both of us none the same. I feel like I lost something that I never had to begin with. I know I thought and still do think the timing is horrible right now it's just that for a week I thought I might be and I fell in love all over again then found it was nothing to fall in love with. It's okay though we will try again when the timing is better. So as of right now I am working like crazy to get current in my work so I am going to keep up with it blog as I can.

Question of the day: Do you think I'm crazy? I know I am I just want someone else opinion? :-)

Monday, July 2, 2007

Short & Sweet !!!

If I could I would add more hours to the day. I want to do so much but it just never seems like there is enough time. Anyway, yesterday for the first time my darling baby girl said Ma Ma actually she screamed it for about 2hours. I was having a rough day and she just made everything all better her and my soon to be hubby who I will now refer to as just hubby. He is so good to me. I have never had a male who is my everything like he his. And my baby girl she is just words can not describe the pleasure I feel being her mommy.

Question of the day:

How long do you think you should wait in between children? Can you make yourself not be preggers if you're not ready yet and you would NEVER have an abortion? (I know the answer to that just humor me.)

I don't know if I am I just know that it is a possibility and the timing suuuuuccccckkkssss. Hubby says everything will be OK I just keep praying about it. I have tried to keep it to myself. Freakin birth control malfunction why oh why is the sex so irresistible if it was horrible I would stay away from it. :-)

Praying for a pause in the baby making factory,

Carmel Beauty

Friday, June 29, 2007

Bits and Pieces of me

I had a lazy morning today. I was unable to get onto the system to do anything so I just sat around all morning. I wanted to post on my blog or read others, and when I realized I couldn't even do that I got mad. I mean really what fun is it that when you can goof off and not do any work you can't read the Internet, other blogs, or write on your own blog. So I decided to take my lunch at 11am this morning and go pick up my check so that was fun who doesn't love getting paid. Then after I realized how much my bills were compared to my check amount I was left with get this yall a whole $142.26 till pay day which is like 2weeks away. So as you may have guessed I was then very mad again.

In other news, I did get some good news so everyone just pray that everything will work out for me and my fiancee. We have been going through a trying time lately. I won't go into details, and no it's not about our relationship, but we have been going through a lot lately. This news today although we have been praying about it for a while I won't say it was unexpected it was just better than expected at least for the time being. I actually love how our adversity has made us stronger. We communicate better than ever before. I know whatever life hands to us we will be able to handle in our 2yr. 7mth. relationship we have been through more then a little bit let me tell you. I am glad though because it has shaped the people we are today.

My daughter is standing already and she is growing up so fast this makes me happy and scares me at the same time. She is so beautiful with the biggest grey/blue eyes I have ever seen. She has this thing where she will stare at you without blinking. I mean she does this for long periods of time yall, and it scares my aunt. She has her periods of unexplained fussiness, but for the most part she is such a happy baby. I told her father though that he will have a lot on his hands when she is able to date at age 25. :-)

Well yesterday was the girl I was telling yall about last day so today is the beginning of me taking over her position. So while I was unable to do anything I have been just going over some of the parts of her job trying to see what is caught up and what is behind. Guess what? EVERYTHING is behind. It will take 6months just to catch up. I want the job though. I love the work I just wish it was caught up I hate having to dig myselve out of a pit because the new work will continue to come even if the old is not done. Then people have been coming to me all day with stuff they would usually ask her about then they ask are you going to be applying for her position. Why are people so nosy? I mean really is that their business at all. I just say I haven't decided then they give me their unsolicited advise and tell me I should. It's really quite annoying.

So I have been writing forever and a day long post I know. I will go now no helping views today I couldn't think of a topic. I will work more on Mike and Kyra story today though and have more for ya on Monday. Everyone who blogs I stalk I read today's entry if you have one and it would not let me post a comment I may try to do that later if I have time. :-)


Carmel Beauty

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Sexually Transmitted Diseases!!!!!! Are you Aware?

When you begin a relationship BEFORE it becomes sexual then you need to discuss your sexual history, what forms of birth control you will be using, and the last time you have taken STD tests get as much information as you can.

Now when discussing your sexual history it is required that you give ALL information, and this knowledge does include whether or not you have been with someone of the same gender. It is not ok to lie to your partner, it's not ok to omit information. To me this is just another form of lying. Yes everyone has a right to choose what gender they prefer to be with, but the person you are with also has a right to know this information.

Currently, we have a new trend of the DL brother. This is wrong on so many levels. This is a man who has a wife and in so cases children, but he also sleeps with men. In some cases this man will not use protection, because he doesn't want to get caught. Now I don't agree with cheating on a person especially a wife/husband, because you have made a commitment to each other, but the DL man has taken that to a whole new level of deception. They are not just cheating it's like they are using there spouse as a cloak for they homosexuality. In doing so they are putting there significant other and any children they may have at risk by not using protection.

In discussing what forms of protection to use it's not just birth you are trying to prevent ladies and gentlemen. That is a factor, but not the most important. Women I know for myself that most men don't like to use condoms, but you can not use this as an excuse not to protect yourself. There are condoms for women as well. Women did you know that a man can't have sex with you without a condom unless you let them. It's true I promise. Let him know upfront that YOU are the most important person to you. You (male or female) need to protect yourself that is the only way we will stop the spread of STD's.

Now for those of you in a committed relationship maybe heading towards marriage who only have ONE sexual partner what you need to do is get re-tested. Yes I wrote re-tested because before you had sex with this person you should have already been tested. So this is just to make sure that nothing had been sitting dormant when you tested before and everything is a ok for you to just use either birth control or if trying to have a baby no birth control.

I am trying to help spread the word and just talking about things that have been weighing on my mind. Also trying to get my birds and bees conversation ready for my daughter yeah I have like 25 years before she will be even allowed to date but hey why not get started early. She is 8months old I gotta start sometime and I like being prepared.

For more information on this topic go to they have answers from doctors 24/7.

My question do you think that you have to advise your current partner if you have had sexual partners of the same gender? Why or Why not?

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Schedules !!!!!

I keep trying to make a schedule for myself with blogging, work, my daughter, and fiancee well today I have come to realize that they just don't work so no more. At work before I can finish one assignment they are bringing me another so in between each I am working on whatever that I can. It's the end of our fiscal year so things are very busy here. I barely have time to write this. At home my daughter requires a lot of attention and she is teething right now so that is not fun for either of us. She is just not sleeping well so in turn neither are me and my fiancee. Also about a week ago for the last month she had an ear infection that would NOT go away it is better now but that and teething at he same time is just HELL. Well woman you know how your man requires his attention we are still trying to get into a groove after having the baby so we are not quite there but hopefully we will be soon.

I will have more free time this weekend to work on Mike & Kyra's story so I hope to be able to post another part on Monday.

My question today is how come all the TV mothers made it look so easy to run a household?

Needing structure,

Carmel Beauty

Monday, June 25, 2007

An interuption to your reguarly scheduled program

I know that I promised to do part Part IV to Mike and Kyra story, but blame it on the soon to be husband I just haven't had time but tonight I will work on the story and post it tomorrow.

So since I don't have that I am going to ask another poll question something that I have been thinking about for a while and wanted to get every one's opinion on. Adoption? Now I am all for adoption or foster care what I am against is people adopting from another country who live right here is the good old US of A. I mean we have thousands of children right here who need homes why do you have to go to another country to adopt. I have nothing against the other children either truly I don't. I just feel that in order for our country to improve we need to begin at home. Our country is always trying to help others yes this is a good thing in a way. I say in a way because I can't help you if I can't even help myself. So yes I am all for adoption hope to be able to do that some day in the future, but please seek out the thousands of children that need a home and love right here.

People tell me how you feel concerning adoption do you have other concerns do you agree or disagree with me give me your view?

Wondering do I adopt from USA or a Third World country,

Carmel Beauty

Friday, June 22, 2007


Currently I work for a temp agency. I am an assistant to the office manager. Last Friday she put in her resignation so her last day will be on this coming Thursday. With Tranquil gone I have had A LOT more work to do because since she is leaving she has decided to do less work than normal. Then yesterday her boss came to me and asked if I could take over her position after she leaves till he is able to hire a permanent person for her position. So I will have lots, lots and losts more work to do than normal. I am going to still kept up with my posting though I promise it is my only form of release. I will not be like Tranquil who hasn't posted in forever.

I will post more on Mike and Kyra on Monday.

Gotta Go so much work so little time,

Carmel Beauty